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Messages - AZZERAE

#271
Quote from: Silphion on February 12, 2021, 12:29:13 AM
I was banned for not being enough of an asshole as the others on EllGab, such as KSM, Bart Ell, et al.

I'm kidding, bud. Its a thing.

#272
Quote from: ksm32 on February 12, 2021, 12:28:13 AM
Your accent came out well there. ;D

I have an accent?! Why did nobody tell me this till now!?
#274
Quote from: Silphion on February 12, 2021, 12:22:23 AM
I was banned for not being enough of an asshole.

So, your definition of me "being myself" is me "being an asshole"?

#275
Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:15:10 AM
They didn't ban me, just told me to put a shirt on :-\

And why would they do such a thing? You're positively blue steel! Unlike the myriad of sweat hogs, fat slobs and amorphous blobs occupying these digital clusters.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=i0N4hmT0NLw
#276
Quote from: Silphion on February 12, 2021, 12:09:54 AM
Infiltration

I was banned there (for being myself). Still am.
#277
Politics / Re: Who Framed David Rubini?
February 12, 2021, 12:12:11 AM
Quote from: Silphion on February 11, 2021, 11:54:54 PM
smells like Rubini



Imagine the smell.
#278
Quote from: Silphion on February 12, 2021, 12:02:52 AM
Allow me back into your little parlour game on EllGab...

Why would you wanna be there? That place is kak, bra.
#279
Politics / Re: Election Night 2020
February 12, 2021, 12:05:33 AM
#280
Radio and Podcasts / Re: Kingdom of Nye With Heather Wade
February 11, 2021, 11:46:40 PM
Quote from: Asuka Langley on February 11, 2021, 09:23:52 PM
I hope Heaters simps keep paying up so we can have someone to laugh at for many years to come.

Are you mentally ill?
#282
Quote from: K_Dubb on February 11, 2021, 10:33:29 PM
That is crazy I don't know why people aren't allowed to change their views with life experience or whatever. I grew up listening to Rush but now I prefer listening to old Leonid Brezhnev addresses to the Central Committee.

A man after my own heart.
#283
Quote from: ACE of CLUBS on February 11, 2021, 08:03:38 PM
are you Casio ?

Both my front teeth are in tact, I've got a full head of hair, I don't live with my grandparents, nor am I a kiddy fiddler. And I'm baffled as to why I graced you with an answer.
#286
Quote from: Silphion on February 11, 2021, 01:07:08 AM


Imagine being that pissed off all the time. How exhausting!
#287
Quote from: Silphion on February 10, 2021, 06:59:11 PM
Someone else is BART ELL who is or was involved in RUBINI'S shenanigans.
BART ELL on RubiniGab made the allegation that you AZZERAE were involved with RUBINI.
This appears to have been done by BART ELL to harass and gaslight SPACEMEOWMAID
and perhaps drive a wedge between you and her, as well as to harass JACKSTAR.

Yeah, well, that shit has nothing to do with me. And nobody will drive a wedge between her and I. It simply isn't possible.
#288
Radio and Podcasts / Re: Azzerae's World
February 10, 2021, 01:35:16 PM
Quote from: SpaceMeowMaid on February 10, 2021, 01:17:25 PM
No wonder you asked me about TRUE BLUE ... Very very very different,

Geno over on AzzGab told me that people do care, even though we are relative strangers interacting in an abstract way. I think he deduced that I was expressing the view through my music that no one gives a shit about me. But I want to make clear that the song is entirely unrelated to the BellGab universe, though! And at odds with any of the given personal conversations I've had with anyone of late.

The message and purpose of the track is about the insincerity of modern life - wearing a smile with a knife in ones back. Pretending things are alright when everything's a mess. Wanting to be honest, but failing, and giving in to defeat, and personal comfort above ones principals.

So essentially, the death of freedom prevalent in the "real" world (which in all actuality is a fake, constructed world), presenting itself as legitimate on its face - while it runs on lies and a surface-level, superficial sham.

Quote from: SpaceMeowMaid on February 10, 2021, 01:17:25 PM
That is a very beautiful delivery of a blunt message and so different than your other music.

Thank you. I'm moving away from rap, and the flippant, punchline-based lyrical content that was once prevalent in hip hop culture of the aughts. I think I'm going down a more experimental road, with the intention to maybe even venture into avante-garde territory. Its a exciting shift!
#290
Quote from: Silphion on February 10, 2021, 05:00:28 AM


Silphion. Are you alleging I'm involved in Rubini's little shenanigans, or are you sharing an image of someone else alleging I'm involved in Rubini's little shenanigans? I'm hoping like hell its the latter.
#291
Politics / Re: Xxxxxxx Xxxxx xx Xxxxxxxx
February 10, 2021, 01:07:16 PM
Quote from: stevesh on February 10, 2021, 05:00:38 AM
cum cookies

Those ain't cookies. They're raisin bread, smothered in rat semen.
#293
Random Topics / Re: Music
February 10, 2021, 04:02:14 AM
#294
Random Topics / Re: Music
February 10, 2021, 04:00:27 AM
#297
Radio and Podcasts / Re: Richard Groyper YouTube Star
February 10, 2021, 01:02:39 AM
Quote from: whoozit on February 09, 2021, 05:43:19 PM
Eveytime I think BellGab can’t get weirder I am proven wrong.

This isn't weird. Its sick.
#298
Archive of Old Threads / Re: My Descent Into Psychosis
February 07, 2021, 10:01:10 AM
Paranoia X

I tug my smoke. I sip my coffee. Black: the tar, and the drink.

I lost myself, I came apart. She's down on herself, comes down on me.

Its trivial, to avoid what's coming. I'm alight, enraged. I match her voice. She doesn't like that.

I pop some pills. I go for a walk. I want a smoke. I need a smoke. I don't have a smoke with me, and I put off having one, so as to not exacerbate the problem.

I'm in all black. Head to toe. Sunglasses. With them, I shut out the world. I don't have to make eye contact. I can slink away, into my self.

Spiralling downwards, here comes depression. I can feel it. Or is it apathy? Its me, drugged. Emotionally blunted. Numbed.

I circle the drain. Its all I know. I dwindle, I slip, I fall ... I know.

I've been here before. A thousand times. I want to run from myself. I remember all those times.

I've fallen, keep falling. I hit rock bottom. There's no way I'm coming out of this now. Nothing is forgotten.

I'm nothing, I'm no one. I'm a whimper in the distance. I'm the dying rainforest. The rage kept me honest.

I'm hog-tied. I'm hurting. I'm dying, I cry. But no one can hear me. Yet, I know why.

They want me dead. They keep me alive. They like to make me suffer. This is no life.

I thought when I pulled the trigger, or tightened the noose - that that'd end the misery - be all over the news.

My face in the paper. An epitaph in homage. To all the abortions and murderers, the crashing of cars.

Bleeding up and down the arm, gushing out blood. Nothing can save you. Nothing, each cut: its too deep, too fatal - bleed out and die.

Finish something for once. Make it count. Blacken both eyes.

I despise what I became, even for me I'm too much. I need tranquility, stability, a family (crutch).

I can't help how I feel, or control all my moods. They're complex and simple, and I just lie there and stew.

I can't find the exit, the exit was false. I need out now, I don't care if its cold. Outside and inside, I'm dying, I swear. Just don't blaspheme, lest you cause my heart tears.

'Please, come back,' I call out to myself. But I'm above my body now, and no one will help.

They resuscitate (or they try), but I'm gone. I make my peace with the Lord, and go up with my gun.

St. Peter, a stick-up, controversy ensues. I'm destined for styxx now, 'down to hell with you!'

Black, and dark and infinite, this torture now is worse. I went down the wrong path, and all they were were words.

Wash back ashore, try again and again. Reincarnation! What a beautiful thing!
#300
Random Topics / Re: What do Bellgabbers do for a living?
February 06, 2021, 04:08:11 AM
Quote from: Hog on February 05, 2021, 05:22:24 PM
the pot calling the kettle black

Haha, I remember when you shit your pants after receiving an email from me.

Quote
"I just received an email from [Azzerae.] It came via the admin@bellgab.com address into the same email account that I opened my account at Bellgab with.

Does [he] actually have my email address?

If I hit reply to the email I received, and typed a response, will [he:]

a) Even get the message, or will the message simply get dumped at Bellgab.com's admin page[?]

b) Will [he] now know my email address?

thanks in advance

peace
Hog"


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